Asexuality........ its hard...... I feel broken... I technically am I believe.... I often with I wasn't but I feel like sex is almost always a waist of time..... there so much more I could be doing instead of sex... like sleeping... I love sleep... or playing with my kitties, or random kitties.... cleaning. reading. school work.... which I am really behind in now that I think about it.....im at suck a loss for words.... I get so depressed I don't want to do anything.......

planning my shirt for pride day this weekend! so far im doing a tie dye shirt in the asexual colors and the words in the pan colors...

 

I had weird dreams last night, but lets save that for later!

 

I wish my boyfriend would go to events with me and openly support me but the fact he stays with me and has backed off with the touchy feely bugging me is amazing.

 

going on a super cleaning spree today, cant afford to eat till he gets home for dinner. I have EDs and today im giving in to ana.... I found my kitchen table!!!! haven't seen it in about 6+ months!!! im tyred of giving in to my depression and no one wanting to come over because my house is so messy... now my floor is covered in stuff though! rawrg. got a coffee maker and a new scale yesterday, just set them up.... 198.4lbs.... I was 115 two years ago... time for a trash run and then coffee.... or tea... not sure yet... ugh 6 hours till I can eat....

the past few days have been good, extra hours at work. seeing my boyfriends friends. ice cream. he is being a lot more respectful of my prudeness since I told him. Boston pride parade this weekend. most likely going.